tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61664595721496998162024-03-17T20:02:25.981-07:00Mind DeepA Mindfulness Practice BlogMarguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.comBlogger876125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-9947484072902516682016-02-08T22:41:00.002-08:002016-02-08T22:42:34.912-08:00My New Book: 'Caring For a Loved One With Dementia'<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I am delighted to announce the release of my new book, '<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Caring-Loved-One-Dementia-Mindfulness-Based/dp/1626251576">Caring for a Loved One with Dementia: A Mindfulness-Based Guide for Reducing Stress and Making the Best of Your Journey Together'</a>.<br />
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It was almost two years ago, when a New Harbinger editor approached me to write the book. I am glad. It feels good being able to offer what I learned to others going through the heroic journey of caring for a loved one with dementia.<br />
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Some of the stories I shared here in this blog, about caring long distance for my mother, made their way in the book. And I am grateful for it. Blogging allows a fluidity of words that can become stilted when writing 'a book'.<br />
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-35917178502756907152015-12-06T14:03:00.001-08:002015-12-06T14:03:58.429-08:00Listening to the Sound of Breath<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
This morning, sitting and minding the breath, an insight arose that I would like to share. Up until now, I have always thought of awareness of breath and mindfulness of sounds as two separate practices. This morning, sitting, it struck me that both can be combined into one.<br />
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Sitting, put the attention on the breath wherever it is most noticeable in the body. Linger a few minutes there, and in the midst of the surrounding quietness, start listening to the constantly changing sound of the breath. Sound of breath coming in, sound of breath leaving the body, and the silence in between. Let it carry your awareness.<br />
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For some such as myself, the sound of breath may be just what is needed to get the mind concentrated.<br />
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Paying attention to the sound of my own breath also made me think about all the times when I was privileged to sit next to someone dying, and how the sound of breath is such a big part of the life ending experience.<br />
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May you listen to the sound of breath. </div>
Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-14900459173805114122015-10-12T11:26:00.001-07:002015-10-12T11:26:49.110-07:00Just Do It<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Today, I found renewed inspiration for practice in Ajahn Chah's injunction to 'Just do it!'. It is so easy wanting to complicate practice, when in fact the idea is to just do it, meaning simply following the breath, and keeping at it for a set period of time.<br />
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<i>Just keep breathing in and out like this. Don’t be interested in anything else. It doesn’t matter even if someone is standing on their head with their ass in the air. Don’t pay it any attention. Just stay with the in-breath and the out-breath. Concentrate your awareness on the breath. Just keep doing it. </i></blockquote>
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<i>Don’t take up anything else. There’s no need to think about gaining things. Don’t take up anything at all. Simply know the in- breath and the out-breath. The in-breath and the out-breath. [In] on the in-breath; [out] on the out-breath. Just stay with the breath in this way until you are aware of the in-breath and aware of the out-breath....aware of the in-breath.... aware of the out-breath. Be aware in this way until the mind is peaceful, without irritation, without agitation, merely the breath going out and coming in. Let your mind remain in this state. You don’t need a goal yet. It’s this state that is the first stage of practice. </i></blockquote>
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<i>... watch the inhalation to its full extent until it completely disappears in the abdomen. When the inhalation is complete then allow the breath out until the lungs are empty. Don’t force it. It doesn’t matter how long or short or soft the breath is, let it be just right for you. Sit and watch the inhalation and the exhalation, make yourself comfortable with that. Don’t allow your mind to get lost. If it gets lost then stop, look to see where it’s got to, why it is not following the breath. Go after it and bring it back. Get it to stay with the breath, and, without doubt, one day you will see the reward. Just keep doing it. Do it as if you won’t gain anything, as if nothing will happen, as if you don’t know who’s doing it, but keep doing it anyway. Like rice in the barn. You take it out and sow it in the fields, as if you were throwing it away, sow it throughout the fields, without being interested in it, and yet it sprouts, rice plants grow up, you transplant it and you’ve got sweet green rice. That’s what it’s about. </i> </blockquote>
Of course it is not so easy. The challenge lies in making it to one's seat and staying with the practice. What helps is knowing that in the end, the mind will eventually calm down, and we may get a chance to experience peace. Meanwhile, we let go of any goal, any desire for any outcome. And we just follow the breath.</div>
Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-85144185111607133802015-10-03T09:43:00.001-07:002015-10-03T09:44:05.829-07:00Meditation is Easy for Old Folks<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I have been re-reading the <a href="http://www.ajahnchah.org/pdf/the_teachings_of_ajahn_chah_web.pdf">Teachings of Ajahn Chah</a>. Such a delight and food for one's practice . . . I was especially interested in what he had to say about aging and mindfulness practice. A common view is that one should undertake mindfulness at a young age while one's health is still good. Ajahn Chah takes another stance, that I find worth sharing for the many older folks interested in taking up mindfulness practice. Here are some excerpts:<br />
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Older persons, who often can’t sit very well, can contemplate especially well and practice concentration easily; they too can develop a lot of wisdom. How is it that they can develop wisdom? Everything is rousing them. When they open their eyes, they don’t see things as clearly as they used to. Their teeth give them trouble and fall out. Their bodies ache most of the time. Just that is the place of study. So really, meditation is easy for old folks. Meditation is hard for youngsters. Their teeth are strong, so they can enjoy their food. They sleep soundly. Their faculties are intact and the world is fun and exciting to them, so they get deluded in a big way. For the old ones, when they chew on something hard they’re soon in pain. [...] When they open their eyes their sight is fuzzy. In the morning their backs ache. In the evening their legs hurt. That’s it! This is really an excellent subject to study. Some of you older people will say you can’t meditate. What do you want to meditate on? Who will you learn meditation from? This is seeing the body in the body and sensation in sensation. Are you seeing these or are you running away? Saying you can’t practice because you’re too old is only due to wrong understanding. The question is, are things clear to you? Elderly persons have a lot of thinking, a lot of sensation, a lot of discomfort and pain. Everything appears! If they meditate, they can really testify to it. So I say that meditation is easy for old folks. They can do it best. [...] You have to see it within yourself. When you sit, it’s true; when you stand up, it’s true; when you walk, it’s true. Everything is a hassle, everything is presenting obstacles – and everything is teaching you. Isn’t this so? Can you just get up and walk away so easily now? When you stand up, it’s “Oy!” Or haven’t you noticed? And it’s “Oy!” when you walk. It’s prodding you. When you’re young you can just stand up and walk, going on your way. But you don’t really know anything. When you’re old, every time you stand up it’s “Oy!” Isn’t that what you say? “Oy! Oy!” Every time you move, you learn something. So how can you say it’s difficult to meditate? Where else is there to look? It’s all correct. </blockquote>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-24660808489172993522015-09-29T18:19:00.002-07:002015-09-29T18:19:58.399-07:00Time Is Not the Problem<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Whenever I say I did not have time to meditate today, that is not true. Rather, it is that I did not use my time wisely. If I pay careful attention, and I add up all the minutes I spend each day on Twitter, Facebook, the Huffington Post, and late night TV, I come close to one hour at least, which is a good amount of time that could have been spent on mindfulness practice.<br />
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Apparently, I am not as bad as most . . . <a href="https://www.globalwebindex.net/blog/daily-time-spent-on-social-networks-rises-to-1-72-hours">A survey earlier this year</a> shows that the average time spent online is 6 hours, out of which 2 are spent on social media and microblogging. This is insane. We are spending almost one full day out of our week idling away on the phone or the computer. Not only is it valuable time that could be spent otherwise, starting with mindfulness practice, but the activity itself of constant checking for the latest updates does not give the mind any chance to rest in between necessary daily activities.<br />
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I do not have yet a solution, for I am as addicted as anyone else. I just want to put it out there, in an effort to start becoming more aware, and reclaim precious mind. </div>
Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-61702798006396121672015-09-05T09:07:00.003-07:002015-09-05T09:09:40.865-07:006 Ways to Be With the Breath<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Listening to <a href="http://ayyakhematalks.org/Media/Raymond_Island_1992/RI9101.mp3">one of Ayya Khema's many excellent recordings</a>, I was reminded that there is not one but at least six different ways of being with the breath during awareness of breath sitting practice. Here they are:<br />
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In your head, count one on the in-breath, one of the out-breath, and repeat until you get to ten. Then start over . . . Any time a distracting thought interrupts, or you loose track, just go back to one.</div>
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If you don't like numbers, use one word, the same one on each in-breath and each out-breath. You can use the word 'peace' for instance, or any other that works for you. </div>
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If you have visual mind, imagine the breath coming in and out as an ocean wave or a cloud. When coming in with the breath, the wave gets smaller. As it goes out, it gets bigger.</div>
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Pay attention to the sensation of the wind of breath on the nostrils, or the throat, or the lung. Follow the breath in, follow the breath out. Make sure to continue to stay with sensations in the body. </div>
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If practiced already, you can notice beginning, middle, and end of each breath. </div>
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If you cannot work with the breath, look at the impermanence of each breath, the constant coming and going. </div>
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My practice of choice is the sensation approach, focusing on the physical experiencing of breath making its way through and out of the body. I have found focusing on the larger sensations such as the rising and falling of the belly much easier to do than let's say honing on the sensations in the nostrils. </div>
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Find the one that works best for you, and stick to it!</div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-57801414758030183052015-08-30T20:39:00.003-07:002015-08-30T20:39:28.522-07:00Why I Keep Going Back to Vedana<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
We are sensing beings. We sense, i.e. experience our environment through our five immediate senses, and also our mind. The quality of that sensing experience is called '<a href="http://minddeep.blogspot.com/2012/09/leigh-brasington-on-vedana.html">vedana</a>' in Pali language, and it affects our life from the time we are born until our last breath. Vedana falls into three categories: pleasant, unpleasant, and neutral, and we usually react to each type in a predictable manner. We want more of the pleasant, and we push away the unpleasant. The neutral is usually too bland to be noticed by our ordinary consciousness. Now, why does it matter, you may ask? A great deal, it turns out. In my experience, vedana, and our awareness of it or lack thereof, can be the difference between a life liberated from the tyranny of conditionality, and a life at the mercy of circumstances.<br />
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Looking back, I see that my original motivation for taking up mindfulness practice came from a misguided view. I was suffering and wanted a way out, and had this understanding that mindfulness would be the way to one day start feeling peace, happiness, and bliss. While it is true that practice can bring some of those wonderful states, the paradox lies in the fact that wishing for those can actually be an impediment to freedom and joy. Only within the past few years, have I come to let go of such foolish wish, and instead reconcile with the truth that each moment is to be experienced for what it is. This has enabled me to more fully relax into each moment, no longer having to dread or wish away the inevitable, all the 's...' that always comes sooner or later. In relationships, it helps not personalize annoying encounters. This person was a pain, he or she caused me grief, and in the end, it does not matter so much. What does count is the recognition of yet another unpleasant moment, and my automatic reaction to it, the familiar internal clenching, the tightening against the experience. Mindfulness can help catch it before it gets too entrenched, and before the mind seals it with its share of stories about this thing, this person, this event. The mind becomes trained to tell itself, 'unpleasant, this is unpleasant', and to not make too big of a deal of it.<br />
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Now, the best way to loosen vedana's hold is not so much in the unhappy moments, but rather during times when all is well and we find ourselves really liking 'this'. Next time such a moment arise, pause and notice your body and mind's inclination to want to hang on. It feels so good, we want more, and we don't want the feeling to stop. We start grasping, and when the time comes and the goodness slips away, as it is bound to, we experience suffering. The trick is in not hanging on so much to the pleasantness. That way we are less likely to experience vedana burn as I call it, the same way we won't get rope burn if we don't hang on to the rope when it gets pulled away. Every time, I find myself transported with euphoric feelings, the bell goes on in my head, warning me to not get so carried away. That moment that feels sooooo wonderful right now, that too shall pass. Which is not to say, that feelings get dulled, to the contrary. One can feel great joy, yet be loose around it. The mind knows and becomes more impartial regarding the happenstance of pleasantness or unpleasantness. The mind trains itself to cultivate the beautiful quality of equanimity.<br />
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-66533763005261724032015-08-17T10:39:00.000-07:002015-08-17T10:39:01.786-07:00With Mindfulness Practice, Less Is More<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
When all is practiced and done, less is really more. This morning sitting down for practice, I realized mindfulness practice is indeed very simple.<br />
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No need to control the breath,<br />
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No need to think about the breath,<br />
only feel it come and go.<br />
No need to control outcomes,<br />
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No need to exert the mind<br />
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No need to move the body,<br />
pain is part of the ride.<br />
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-6682770679550146452014-11-27T17:54:00.001-08:002014-11-30T11:57:40.974-08:00Half Empty and Half Full<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Conventional wisdom urges us to focus on the full half. After much contemplation, I am arriving at a slightly different viewpoint:<br />
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To not gloss over the empty half.<br />
To fully acknowledge it,<br />
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-18485167217632766332014-11-09T23:05:00.001-08:002014-11-09T23:05:38.468-08:00Another Invitation to Love<div style="text-align: justify;">
Grief as I felt it this afternoon was of the more subtle kind. Nobody had died. Instead, I had been reminded of a painful bond, a loss not clearly visible to the outside world, but very real nevertheless. Heart aching still, I got to see up close again, the suffering that comes when love gets thrown back onto itself, with no one to respond at the other end. This is where mindfulness practice is put to the test. Mindfulness helps one to not wallow in self-pity and despair. Instead, one can investigate the full impact of hanging on to the idea of love on one's own terms. One can feel the physical pain from grasping, and make the connection with ancient wisdom. </div>
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Every time I fall into that place, I feel compelled to revisit <a href="http://www.leighb.com/ayyametta.htm">Ayya Khema's Metta talk</a>. And each time, I come up with another treasure. </div>
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<span style="background-color: white; text-align: start;"><i>There are six billion of us, so why diminish ourselves to one, two, or three? And not only that, the whole problem lies in the fact that because it is attachment, we've got to *keep* those one, two, or three in order to experience any kind of love. We are afraid to lose them: to lose them through death, through change of mind, to leaving home, to whatever change happens. And that fear discolors our love to the point where it can no longer be pure, because it is hanging on.</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; text-align: start;">Grief begs us to listen to the suffering within, and to slowly let go of the cause. Life is too short to waste one more moment in self-inflicted misery. True love is limitless and independent of external conditions.</span></div>
minddeephttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11775183882249750726noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-68167907375906018052014-09-20T16:02:00.003-07:002014-09-20T16:02:48.904-07:00Getting Back on Track<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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It's been hard finding the time to sit every day. I have let work take over my life, and I am feeling the effect. The spaciousness that used to permeate my days has gone. Instead, weariness and restlessness. It is as if my constantly stimulated mind is on overdrive. I then think about all the others whose demanding lives are also playing tricks on them. Care workers who sometimes hold two jobs to make ends meet, and function on 3 to 4 hours of sleep every night. Exhausted new moms whose new babies won't stop crying, and with no grandma nearby to help out. Med residents on duty 36 hour straight. Sandwiched daughters spread too thin between their teenage children and their ailing parents. Young lawyers trying hard to climb up the corporate ladder . . . Very few of us can escape the pressure from living in our task-driven, disenfranchised culture. Such busy-ness is exacting a price. Many of us end up being super-stressed, anxious, depressed, with no end in sight. </div>
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It is ironic that neuroscience is coming up with more and more studies showing the power of mindfulness practice to reduce such stress. We know mindfulness can save our health, both mental and physical. It can help us find more joy. It can repair our frayed telomeres. The problem is how to find the time and motivation to practice every day. Superseding the time issue, is the need to feel compelled enough to make the necessary effort. Looking back on my years as a meditator, I can see a pattern. Times of intense practice, followed by waning in my dedication, then having to suffer the consequences, until the realization one day of needing to get back on track. This is where I am at today. The violence done to myself from not giving my mind enough time to settle every day, is now to intense to be ignored. I love myself too much! </div>
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Sitting right now, I let myself feel the pain from always being 'on'. Tight throat, stomach in a knot, tiredness, shallow breath . . . The central nervous system needs to switch from sympathetic to parasympathetic mode. I need to make mindfulness more of a priority every day, and I need to find the time. Now, time is an interesting notion, particularly in regards to practice. No matter how busy I may be with work, the truth is there is still ample opportunities for mindfulness. First, starting in the morning with allowing enough time to sit. When is my first work meeting? How soon do I need to set the alarm? How about foregoing checking and answering emails first thing? Of course, mindfulness is not just about sitting once every day. It needs to be woven into work, and all my other activities. One simple switch I can make is to cut down on all the times I spend throughout the day surfing the web, whenever I feel I need a break. How about using those periods to quietly sit or practice walking meditation? Good intentions, that need to be acted upon. </div>
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How are you doing with your practice? Do you struggle like I do? </div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-52542388713251755302014-08-09T14:53:00.001-07:002014-08-09T14:57:26.137-07:005 Contemplations For Dementia Care Partners<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Sooner or later, during one's mindful journey, one becomes faced with a wall. One has a choice then. To keep bumping one's head against the inevitable, or to stop and contemplate the very nature of the wall itself. The wall is about the impermanence of life, and our need to face that truth. Many times, whenever grief wells up inside, as it did earlier today, I call upon the 5 Remembrances:</div>
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I am of the nature to have ill health. </div>
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All that is dear to me and everyone I love are of the nature to change. </div>
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I am of the nature to have ill health of body and/or mind. </div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-92018087523035517802014-06-15T10:46:00.001-07:002014-06-15T10:46:22.597-07:00Mindful Presence to Ease the Dementia Journey<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Imagine a marathon you did not sign up for, and yet, you are told you have to run the race until the end. To add to the challenge, you are to carry a heavy load on your shoulders, and the load will get heavier and heavier as the race goes on. This is what the dementia journey is like for most family caregivers... Keeping with the marathon metaphor, what is needed is a way for caregivers to develop the strength that will be required of them over the long run. The Presence Care program is a new, integrative approach that combines mindfulness and compassion practices with understanding of the dementia experience. Its goals are to ease care burden and stress, and to help foster greater well-being for both caregivers and the persons in their care. It goes like this:</div>
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The more we can learn about the disease, the better equipped we are to understand what the person needs and why they are behaving in certain ways. Dementia affects different parts of the brain, each responsible for different cognitive domains such as memory, language, behavior, executive function, or movement. Not all dementias affect the same domains, and we need to know which ones are impacted and what that means in terms of the person's interactions with us. For instance someone struggling with executive function will have trouble initiating tasks and will be dependent on others to get engaged into activities. We also need to guard from our tendency to position the person with dementia as less able than they really are. Many abilities are preserved throughout dementia. In many cases, emotional intelligence is even heightened.</div>
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Using Jon Kabat-Zinn's definition, mindfulness is being fully aware of the present moment, on purpose, and without judgment. The validity of mindfulness as a powerful stress-reduction tool is no longer in question. That benefit alone makes it worthwhile for stressed out dementia caregivers to undertake mindfulness practice. The other, equally important reason has to do with the way in which mindful attention allows us to notice what is happening moment to moment, that may impact the person's experience. What do we bring into the situation? What do we hear? What do we see? What is the person telling us with her body language? Armed with that awareness, we then have a chance to act in a way that is most beneficial to the person. Of course, remembering to be mindful does not come naturally. We need to train our mind to come back to the present moment. This is done by setting time aside to practice every day. Even only five minutes of sitting and paying attention to the breath can make a big difference.</div>
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Compassionate care is a natural outcome of mindfulness practice. In the mindful noticing of stress for the other person lies the seed for our compassionate response. I worked once with an elder man with Parkinson's who was moved to tears once his wife learned to model her steps after his. It took them both a good ten minutes to walk the twenty feet from my office to their car. Mindful "pacing with" is a wonderful practice that helps us shift from trying to get somewhere fast to becoming fully present for ourselves and the other person, while walking together. Such walking is an example of compassionate response.</div>
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I would like to end with a note on self-compassion. With greater awareness and deeper understanding of the person's needs often comes the painful realization of our own inadequacies, and of times before when we may have unintentionally hurt the person in our care. We address this by giving ourselves frequent self-compassion breaks, a practice developed by Kristin Neff. First, we recognize the suffering in our heart: "This is painful." Then we see that suffering as a part of the human condition: "We all struggle in our lives." Third, we extend kindness to ourselves: "May I forgive myself." The dementia care journey is an ongoing adult education in mindfulness and love. If we learn to view every one of our dementia care experiences as just that, we will do ourselves a great service, and we will be more free to give the person what they need.</div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-44511114929939919292014-05-05T15:13:00.001-07:002014-05-05T15:14:32.135-07:00Mindfulness Haiku<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-81587474572247066132014-03-30T11:54:00.000-07:002014-03-30T11:54:56.512-07:00Many Ways to Love<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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The more I live, the more I understand love. What it is, and what it isn't: </div>
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It is now clear that love is to be found within myself, and not outside. </div>
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Love does not expect anything from the other person. </div>
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Love is about giving, not expecting. </div>
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Love does not ask for the person to stick around, or love us. </div>
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Love does not discriminate, and offers a limitless world of people to be loved. </div>
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Love is an inclination of the heart. </div>
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Love is also a discipline of the mind to not close the heart. </div>
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Love is about not demanding from others the perfection that eludes us. </div>
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Lately, I have been gifted with yet another insight about love. I have come to realize that each person has a different way of expressing love. Some ways are more obvious, others less so and require some deciphering. Mostly, I need to not project my own way with love unto others. It is helpful being aware of one's idea about love. I tend to equal love with kind words, physical closeness, and generous gestures. That's a lot to ask . . . </div>
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Others around me have been my best teachers, showing me different, and sometimes opposite ways of expressing love:</div>
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One is clumsy with words and quick to react. Yet, he can be the kindest, most generous man. I can choose to focus on his weakness, or I can hone in on the times when his heart 'speaks'. </div>
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Another shows her love through food, just like the man in the movie 'Eat Drink Man Woman'. No words of love ever exchanged, or tight embraces to be had, but instead lovely feasts in the kitchen. </div>
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That one has a way with gifts also, always knowing what will please me. Gift giving is an attempt by the otherwise parsimonious heart to say, "I love you". </div>
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My father who was a difficult man, showed me his love by always coming through when I needed help. </div>
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'She' expresses her love through a pet, and pulls me in by texting me cute pictures of the dog, wondering "what would I do without him?" </div>
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My mother whose clinginess I tried to run away from, gave me the safety of her unconditional love.</div>
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Love comes to us in many ways. It is up to us to recognize it!</div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-52323129235775817752014-03-18T08:21:00.003-07:002014-03-18T08:21:58.582-07:00Is It Mindfulness or Meditation?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I get asked that question a lot, and the answer is, yes, and . . .</div>
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Yes, mindfulness is a form of meditation practice. Other names for such meditation are insight and Vipassana. Mindfulness was popularized thirty years ago by Jon Kabat-Zinn with his Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction. The genius of Jon Kabat-Zinn has been to make this ancient form of meditation accessible to the mainstream. Mindfulness meditation is now taught in a wide range of settings including hospitals, clinics, schools, prisons, businesses, and other venues all other the U.S. and the rest of the world. It is the form of meditation that has been the subject of much attention from neuroscience research. It is the practice I teach in my Mindfulness-Based Dementia Care and other mindfulness-based programs for caregivers. Mindfulness as commonly taught these days, draws its roots from the most ancient tradition of Buddhism know as Theravada. It has been stripped of all its religious context, and only the methods for de-stressing the brain have been kept, thereby making it accessible to all, independent of their religious orientation. It is important to stress that contemporary mindfulness practice is completely agnostic. </div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-64720894053744079082014-02-28T10:26:00.002-08:002014-02-28T10:26:22.041-08:00Playing with Concentration and Insight<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Inspired by Gil Fronsdal's recent talk on concentration, I digged deeper into the interplay between the two practices of concentration and insight. And came across, <i><a href="http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/authors/thanissaro/concmind.html">The Path of Concentration and Mindfulness</a></i>, a very helpful article by Thanissaro Bhikkhu on his website. </div>
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Both teachers emphasize the same thing, that concentration and insight cannot be separated, but rather work in concert. This is certainly what I have experienced in my practice:</div>
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We start with the intention of concentrating on a chosen object, most commonly the breath or the body. This becomes our frame of reference. Of course, for most of us, the mind does not stay still. Instead, it wants to wander. Hindrances become more obvious. We keep working on bringing back our attention to the breath, and in the process we get to clearly see the arising and passing of hindering thoughts:</div>
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<i><i>Suppose that anger is interfering with your concentration. Instead of getting involved in the anger, you try simply to be aware of when it's there and when it's not. You look at the anger as an event in and of itself — as it comes, as it goes. But you don't stop there. The next step — as you're still working at focusing on the breath — is recognizing how anger can be made to go away. Sometimes simply watching it is enough to make it go away; sometimes it's not, and you have to deal with it in other ways, such as arguing with the reasoning behind the anger or reminding yourself of the drawbacks of anger. In the course of dealing with it, you have to get your hands dirty. You've got to try and figure out why the anger is coming, why it's going, how you can get it out of there, because you realize that it's an unskillful state. And this requires that you improvise. Experiment. You've got to chase your ego and impatience out of the way so that you can have the space to make mistakes and learn from them, so that you can develop a skill in dealing with the anger. It's not just a question of hating the anger and trying to push it away, or of loving the anger and welcoming it.</i></i></div>
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We shift our attention to the business of setting aside the hindrance. This may be our whole meditation and it can go on for one day, one month, one year or more . . . Still, every time, we start with the breath or the body. Once we have purified our mind enough, then and only then, can we go back to working on truly concentrating on the breath. We want to pursue this lofty goal because a wisely concentrated mind gives us the chance of experiencing a stress-free state, independent of outer conditions. We are developing the inner happiness habit.</div>
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This is what happens for most people . . . There is the case also of persons for whom reaching deep concentration for a long time is possible right away. Gil cautioned against getting mistaken by such phenomenon, for it may be that we have learned to dissociate early on in our life, as an adaptive mechanism to traumatic circumstances for instance. Such people may be able to transfer that skill into their meditation practice, and literally cut themselves off from themselves. They are not able to integrate the transient freedom from concentrated states into their lives, and are therefore unable to gain insights into the trappings within their own mind. Their lives remain unchanged, and the opportunity for acquired wisdom and true inner happiness are missed altogether.</div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-67680692468782333762014-02-07T10:26:00.000-08:002014-02-07T16:39:13.480-08:00Past, Present, Future, and Mindfulness<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Re-reading Thanissaro Bhikkhu's excellent book, <a href="http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/authors/thanissaro/wings.pdf">The Wings of Awakening</a>, I stopped at page ten. There, the teacher gives a clear expose of <i>this/that conditionality</i>, and of how it gets played out moment to moment in our lives. This is a notion well-worth pondering and understanding, as it is the glue that links together past thoughts (and actions) with our present moment experience and also future states. Sitting still now, I not only experience what is happening in the moment, but also the consequences from past thoughts, actions, words that keep on reverberating in my mind, in often times mysterious ways. This is why despite all our intentions to meditate and experience peace, we often find our mind hindered by automatic thoughts related to the past.<br />
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How we relate to the present moment may, if it creates strong enough of an impression, impact our future. That impact may come in the form of lingering thoughts or emotions, or outside consequences from our environment. It can go both ways, positively or negatively, depending on the nature of our meeting with the moment. We also have some (limited) power regarding how we mediate the outcome of past experiences in the present moment. This in a nutshell, is my take away from Thanissaro Bhikkhu's explanation.</div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-24989507802998393362014-01-13T11:28:00.002-08:002014-01-13T11:28:36.643-08:00Love For Dummies<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I caught myself withholding love at the Whole Foods checkout. Right there, in between the bag of carrots and my favorite chocolate, I noticed my mind whispering, "she's not in the to-be-loved category, don't bother". The young woman taking care of my groceries happened to be a stranger, and there was not enough love in my heart for her, or at least my mind thought so. Love needed to be saved for those few deemed special people in my life. Of course, such thought is a product of the deluded, ordinary mind.</div>
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Whenever I contemplate love, <a href="http://www.leighb.com/ayyametta.htm">Ayya Khema's talk about 'Metta' </a>[unconditional love] comes up, and I need to take yet another look at her wise words. Here we go:</div>
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Once we understand that everybody can be the object of our love, not just our family and friends, the love possibilities are endless, and we can approach our life with a renewed sense of ease and boldness. No need to worry any longer. The Whole Foods clerk is as worthy of love as my children, that is the truth. The whole world can become a love fest, if we allow it.</div>
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<span style="background-color: white;">Indeed, not only do we have to put all our love in one basket, we also place it under extreme, unrealistic conditions. This is where grief comes in, grief of our idea of what love should be as enacted in a particular relationship. Hanging on to my mom's life last year, hanging on to the closeness once experienced with my children when they were younger, hanging to expectations about what my relationship with my husband should be in my mind, hanging on . . . Keeping the heart open without any strings attached is not easy. And yet, that is what is called for in this journey towards love.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white;">Yet another revelation that I am still taking in . . . Understanding that love is within me, not outside. Love is not to be gotten from anyone, but rather found inside the heart and offered to others. This turning of love on its head has given me a great sense of security. The garden of love is always there ready for me to wander in, at anytime, within my heart. It may be overcome by weeds at times, but still, the potential is there, and the beautiful flowers are never far beneath.</span></div>
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Love doesn't just happens. In keeping with the garden metaphor, love is a quality we need to uncover, and then cultivate. I have found the best way to cultivate love is to notice the times when it is not present, as with the Whole Foods clerk. When prickly weeds overtake the garden, we can experience what it feels like in our heart. Indifference, pettiness, grudges, hate, anger, opinions, projections are some of the ways that we denies ourselves the possibility of love. </div>
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We need to accept our human imperfections. We are bound to screw up, and rather than flagellating ourselves for our mistakes, we are to see them as part of the course. Not too long ago, I found myself uttering words of hate about someone, and it's taken me a while to reconcile with what had happened that day. I went from disgust for myself, to contemplation, and wanting to learn the lesson from that experience. With every overgrown weed in our heart, we run the risk of wrong speech and all its unfortunate consequences. From that incident, I came out with even more appreciation for the need to cultivate love within. That person who did me and many others harm is an invitation to be even more mindful and intent on loving. </div>
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I like the idea of our life as an adult education class on love. We are all students in the matter. And as it turns out, the curriculum is not that difficult to understand. The challenge is in our willingness to do the homework, day after day, moment to moment, viewing each one of our interactions as another opportunity to practice.</div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-33028924252525064182014-01-01T00:16:00.001-08:002014-01-01T00:17:08.526-08:0015 Mindfulness Resolutions for 2014<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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'Tis time to reflect on this almost past year, and to put out intentions for the soon to be new year. The old informs the not yet born, and the awareness of time passing brings a sense of urgency, to be wiser, kinder, and even more mindful . . .</div>
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To make my sitting practice a daily priority.</div>
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To spend less time being social with strangers, online.</div>
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To think twice before acting on the heart's closings.</div>
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To view each social interaction as an opportunity to learn.</div>
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To move more slowly and more deliberately in the world.</div>
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To be more with nature, and people, and less in my head.</div>
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To walk each step, thankful for the earth beneath.</div>
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To practice loving kindness often, and forgive myself when I forget . . .</div>
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What are your intentions for 2014?</div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-88392348404324274532013-12-28T10:59:00.002-08:002013-12-28T10:59:20.323-08:00Mindfulness, Memory, and Wisdom<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Ayya Khema talks about this life as an ongoing adult education course. The main topic of the class is wisdom, of course. Many times, I find myself faced with a situation where mindfulness offers the possibility of choice. This way, or that one. Usually, the most immediate impulse is not the most advisable one. Underlying tendencies die hard, and always raise their heads when emotions are involved. This is particularly true for primary relationships. But if one has developed enough insight, the mind does not give way to such impulses. Instead, the memory of prior similar times with the same person or a different one, provides scenarios ripe for contemplation. </div>
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Twenty years ago, when I did not know about the hindrances and their way of overtaking the heart, I let anger sever a precious bond, and a very sad story unfolded in the aftermath. Twenty years later, I am still feeling the effects of my decision. I also have a chance to not repeat the past, this time with a different partner. Whenever I find myself triggered, I now have mindfulness to rest on, and the wisdom to choose not to react to the outer trigger. The urge to love has also become greater than the iron hotness of anger. Every night, I dwell in the garden of my heart, and I survey the situation. First, noticing the weeds, a resentment, some fear, greed, whatever they may be, I know better than to let them overtake the beautiful flowers which I know to be there. I give it a try. Pulling out the weeds sometimes takes for than one try. Those things have a way of digging deep, fast, and it may take days, weeks, months, before I can enjoy the peace and love again. </div>
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The ability to remember is key to this whole process. Without memory, the mind cannot learn nor make the leap of inference from one past event to the present moment. <a href="http://memory.ucsf.edu/brain/memory/episodic">Science tells us</a> this about episodic memory:</div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-34074308021552114062013-11-29T21:58:00.002-08:002013-11-29T22:03:16.207-08:006 Life Lessons From Ones With Dementia<div style="text-align: justify;">
I spent Thanksgiving Day in the dementia care community where I work. Throughout the day, I got reminders about what matters in life, and what doesn't. Take a guess, then read on . . . </div>
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Few of us pause to appreciate the beauty of our human mind. Not until we are brought face to face with the reality of a mind stripped of some of its essential functions, do we become grateful for what we have 'up there'. The ability to comprehend and make sense of things, to speak and be understood, to make decisions, to have sound judgment, to move, to have emotions, to control them, to remember what just happened, to orient ourselves visually and spatially . . . So many things we owe to the healthy mind! Every day, I marvel at my mind's ability to function so well. And I also ready myself for the eventuality of it failing some day. Not getting attached, even to the mind itself, that which makes mindfulness possible.</div>
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The body that once felt eternal, has a way of betraying the very old and the ones with dementia. One by one, systems start failing. Vision, hearing are usually first. Then the legs give way, and a series of assistive devices take over. The cane, then the walker, then the wheelchair, then the reclining chair when even sitting becomes too hard . . . Pretty soon, it is the arms and hands’ turn to go limp. Bodily functions follow, that can no longer be controlled. And close to the end, even swallowing becomes a challenge. Then heart, and breath. The body, just like the mind is a wonderfully engineered machinery programmed from the start for obsolescence. While it works, we tend to treat it with nonchalance. Seeing what happens eventually serves as a powerful reminder to appreciate this body while it is still working, and to also not cling to it too much. It cannot be trusted, just like the mind.</div>
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Lawyer, judge, inventor, entrepreneur, surgeon, artist, psychologist, writer . . . they made a mark in society, and had the good fortune of having success, lots of it. Now, there is hardly a trace left of their previous life, apart from fading pictures of past glorious moments, and here and there respectful references to ‘Doctor this', 'Doctor that’. Time and the inability to hang on to memories have a way of erasing what once seemed so important. The world moves on, and the young take over. Seeing this process can help us not fall into the trappings of success, and conversely, failure. No need to get too excited one way or the other. </div>
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Nothing’s for sure, including those close relationships we take for granted. Loved ones upon whom we may have counted for comfort in our old days, those people may die on us, or have a change of heart. The old man who believes that his daughter has died is not far from the truth. His daughter is still very much alive, but she has not visited or called him in years . . . And the woman who thought her husband would be there for her, is now a widow wondering where her beloved has gone. Relationships with those we love and who love us are to be treasured. And we need to expand our circle of love to not just our family and friends, but also anyone with whom we can have a meaningful connection, even if for only a moment. </div>
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This thing we call ‘I’ is not worth getting so preoccupied with. If we live long enough, that too will be chipped away, until we no longer have a sense of identity. The glue that kept our story going will have dried up, and now there will only be a vague sense of existence, and remnants from past habits, that’s all. Yet, most of us spend so much of our lives thinking, acting based on this concept of ‘I’, ‘Me’, and ‘You’. We worry so much about what happened to 'I' in the past, and what is going to happen to it in the future. Our carefully constructed identity is indeed just a story with a beginning, middle and end. For many of us that story will end way before our final years, and in its place will be a void waiting to be filled with new meaning, new ways of occupying ourselves, right there, right now.</div>
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I have been most grateful for the many ways in which mindfulness practice has sustained me in my journey as a <a href="http://www.carenga.com/">startup entrepreneur</a>. For those of you on a similar journey, here are 12 reasons why you might want to consider taking up mindfulness. </div>
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Mindfulness, commonly known as the practice of present moment attention, also encompasses the cultivation of other qualities which happen to be essential for entrepreneurship. Here they are, in no particular order:</div>
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To overcome inevitable challenges, disappointments, obstacles, setbacks.</div>
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Whenever my mind is in too much turmoil to easily settle, I rely on the following two techniques:</div>
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It can be as simple as recognizing the arising of a thought disturbance. Or if the awareness is so inclined, it can get a bit more specific: worrying, obsessing, work, boredom, aversion, escaping . . . The labeling helps one take one step back from the content of the thought itself, into the larger awareness of mind activity.</div>
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Breath, steps, whatever the object of our attention, as long as it is repetitive, we can use counting as a way to keep our awareness on its intended object. I have learned to count from one to ten, starting over after number ten is reached. If the mind strays in the middle of the sequence, one is to start over from one again. I try to keep it simple and natural. Letting each number fall wherever it wants within each breath, each step.</div>
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Marguerite Manteau-Raohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17956537059369707663noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6166459572149699816.post-7669664816021902032013-10-19T14:43:00.001-07:002013-10-19T14:43:46.903-07:006 Common False Views About Mindfulness Practice<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Inspired in part by some of the comments on this blog, I posted this on the Huffington Post earlier this week:</div>
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Mindfulness is often times misunderstood, and that's unfortunate. Such misconceptions can lead folks to give up their practice prematurely. It can also prevent them from reaping the full benefits of true mindfulness. Here are some of the most common false views about mindfulness that I have encountered and ways to change them: </div>
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Mindfulness is not about stopping one from thinking. Rather it is about noticing when thoughts arise and then bringing the mind back to the intended object of our awareness, often times the breath. To expect the mind to not think is ludicrous. The brain is programmed to think, and we spend most of our waking life thinking. It is unreasonable to expect the brain to shut off its thinking mode, just because we want to. When we meditate, we realize we are not in control. </div>
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Even mindfulness is not immune to our fast-everything culture. There are teachers, and books that promulgate the idea that just a few minutes of mindfulness from time to time is enough. That is unfortunately not so. While it is true that a little bit of mindfulness is better than none, the reality is that mindfulness is just like any other skill. Practice a little, and you will make little progress. Practice a lot, and you will gain a lot. A good rule of thumb for mindfulness practice is 30 minutes of formal practice every day. I recommend first thing in the morning, as one is more likely to practice that way, and also one can reap the benefit of their early practice during the whole day. </div>
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With that statement, comes the immediate implication that meditation is not a good thing and should be abandoned. This idea comes from the false assumption that mindfulness is about feeling good. While it is true that mindfulness often leads to feeling more peaceful and content within oneself, there are many moments along the way when practice is all but pleasant. It is not unusual for new meditators to feel physical and emotional pains they were not aware of before. Meditation is about being mindful of what is, no matter how pleasant or unpleasant. </div>
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To get lost into the flow of a pleasurable or creative activity is not mindfulness, although it does entail the ability to concentrate which is part of mindfulness practice. When I used to paint for hours, I would get so absorbed into what I was doing, that I would lose track of time. But I could not remember much of what had happened during all those hours. When I meditate, the opposite happens. The emphasis is on putting my full attention on the present moment and being aware. It also involves insight, the ability to learn about myself in relationship to the present moment experience. </div>
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