There was a time when I believed that “I” was deciding something, particularly when it came to the major things like dropping out of high school, going to college, quitting a job, dating a boy…I would employ all sorts of analytic methods for arriving at a logical decision, but in the end, it was always made at more of a gut level. Because it felt right. There is no doubt that mind and heart work in conjunction with the big questions in life, but in the end I’m not sure that anyone is actually making a decision. It just happens. Conditions line up, there’s cause and effect, things happen, conditions change, other things happen.
I agree with Katherine. The narrow, logical thinking mind can only go so far. It can help take us to a certain point however.
A few days ago, I went through an interesting exercise. I looked back at my whole life, and sorted out all the major decisions I had made into three categories: good, bad, not sure. Then, I looked for patterns within each category. Here is what I found:
In the good category, I had made decisions out of pure love, and the urge to create.
In the bad category, I had made decisions out of fear, greed, insecurity, ill will, or ignorance - not being conscious.
From this, I drew a series of lessons for future decision making:
- never make decisions while in the grip of hindrances
- do not rush - instead take all the time that's needed to discern the whole picture
- involve your whole self, not just narrow logical thinking mind
Looking back at your own life, what are some of the lessons you have learned? Can you share?