This, Not This

Ruth Denison on Right Understanding.

It's been a while since I heard Ruth speak. Here she is, talking about right understanding:

The wisdom to know, 'this', 'not this' . . .

Often throughout a day, I come across such moments, when the road splits and I get to decide, this way, or that way. Private moments, private conversations, private decisions with consequences, big and small.

Some times, it's hard to know. The signposts are not clear about either destination, or there is not enough light. These are times to reflect, to listen to one's dreams, to gather more information. Standing still, waiting for the right time to act.

Other times, I find myself on automatic pilot, driving on a road I did not even know I was on. Needing to stop, to reevaluate the course. 

Or I want to see the whole map at once, and all there is is this small portion, this one decision that can be made. All others are to be put on hold . . . 

And then, there are those times, when the road is blocked. Obstacles inside or outside, or sometimes both prevent the possibilities of any further progress. One needs to have faith then, and trust in the inner process. I have had many such times in he darkness. In hindsight, these were the most transforming times in my life. Eventually, new roads opened up that were not visible at first.

What is your fork in the road presently? How do you decide, which road to take?