Yesterday morning, as I stared at the costly result of a short moment of mindless driving, I remembered U Tejaniya's Don't Look Down on the Defilements, They Will Laugh At You . . .
Unattended anger, doing its job! I realized I needed to heed U Tejaniya's advice:
In order to understand defilements, you have to watch them again and again. What can you gain from just having or expecting good experiences? If you understand the nature of the defilements, they will dissolve. Once you are able to handle defilements, good experiences will naturally follow. Most yogis make the mistake of expecting good experiences instead of trying to work with the defilements.
Respecting anger for the powerful energy that it is. Approaching it with great curiosity. Investigating.
I was amazed by what I found. First, was delusion brought to light, and the realization that the cause of the anger was to be found inside, not outside in someone else. Second, was the insidious effect of my unconscious attachment to a young part of myself, no longer appropriate for this stage of my life. 'She' was the one that had kept me hooked into the anger. And I was no longer willing to suffer for 'her' sake. Third, was how quickly the anger left once I understood its real origin. I awoke this morning, filled with great joy, and gratitude.
Do you have any 'wreck' stories to share? How did you learn from them?