Standing still in the middle of a storm,
I get to feel its full effects.
Major upset in the body. Throat, tight. Chest, heavy. Heart, pounding. Limbs, shaking almost.
In the heart, a powerful cocktail of fear, wanting (something else), anger (at this person), and doubt also.
In the mind, tumbling thoughts of 'poor me', 'what a jerk!', 'what's going to happen?', and many more in the same genre.
Hindrances showing themselves in all their darkness . . .
And under carefully watching eye, something else also, that's even more powerful. Another brew made up of wisdom, strength, loving kindness, determination, energy, patience, virtue, renunciation, truthfulness, equanimity, generosity. All ten perfections showing up during this critical moment.
I needed to write this post this morning, as I am about to head out to work after a sleepless night.
May you be well, may you be at peace, may you be at ease, may you be happy.
May I be well, may I be at peace, may at be at ease, may I be happy.
May the source of my torment be well, and at peace, and at ease, and happy. (I mean it)